Competing Fears

I’m not sure how God speaks to you, but a few weeks ago, I felt God saying: Stop toiling! Granted, I’ve been asking/praying/meditating about changes in my life that I wanted to see and blockages that would prevent blessing, so I wasn’t entirely surprised.

So, I asked how?

And God said: There will always be something competing for your fear. 

Then I was reminded of all the things in my life where I feared something or was encouraged to fear about something. Some were practical and some impractical. Practical fear keeps you from hurting yourself and others. Impractical fear keeps you from living a full life. The latter is where I needed to focus. 

God wanted me to give Him my fear faith. 

The past few years have been difficult physically, emotionally, and financially. Being single again was not my choice, but it was my reality. God’s grace allowed me to see that it is much better for me this way. I feel renewed, free, and trust God more than I ever have, for lack of a better way to put it.

The fear I had, in the beginning, was truly unnecessary, but I didn’t see how it all fit together and that caused my fear. Now, I’m even more sure that better things are ahead because of what I’ve seen and experienced already. Isaiah 61:3 means something for me now, not just toward others. 

If you are in the trenches right now, please know that God CAN make it beautiful. It will never look the way it did before, but it WILL be exceedingly and abundantly good beyond your current comprehension. 

I didn’t need any magic prayers, symbols, incantations – nothing! All the faith I had in my fears, I put that faith in God. He needed nothing but a willing heart that trusts that He provides what we need when we need it and leads us to the desires of our heart. 

And for those of you like me who want to be perfect? Here is the only perfection you need to strive for: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. Deuteronomy 6:4-5

Jesus was right (Matthew 6:25-34). Worry is an insult to God’s Kingdom. If you are a child of God, He promises to take care of your every need. If you are not a child of God, simply ask. 

LORD, help me put my fears in You so that You can take my fear of other things away and have true freedom in this life. 

Merry Christmas and Happy 2021

It’s been quite a year! I’m single again, moved to Harlem and lost an uncle to Covid-19 pneumonia. But, I’m bouncing back and looking forward to the future. You may not be a believer, but God has never let me down. He always does what is best for my future, and that’s exciting and intricate. How I’ve made it through…is nothing short of a supernatural miracle. Speaking of that, I read a TON during Covid, but two books really impacted me this year and I want to share. The first is Unseen Realm: Recovering the Supernatural Worldview of the Bible by Michael S. Heiser*. If you know me, you know how much I love the book of Genesis and my theology on Genesis 6. This book clarifies that and answers all of the supernatural verses pastors avoid because they can’t explain them. It is mind blowing and I get giddy just thinking about a reread! The other book is Bearing God’s Name: Why Sinai Still Matters by Carmen Joy Imes*. This was one of the books in my church‘s book club. When my friend Sandra listened to Mrs. Imes on the Bible Project Podcast she knew my brain would tingle! And she was spot on! Imes explains the complex origin of Christian theology so simply that you’re either enraged or blown away. I was both! It’s why I believe what I believe and why I’m excited about the future. If you’ve ever been curious about how I believe, these two books are the key!

Have a wonderful Holiday and anticipate a shift in 2021. Shifts are not always comfortable, but when you submit to the change your world opens up to a beautiful reality of truth! Be patient, trust the forces of good working in your life and separate yourself from toxic atmospheres…and that includes the people in them. Be brave and be true to where you are on your journey. The best is yet to come!

Cheers!
Karmyn

PS – Ziggy and Maggie are doing very well. I am blessed to have them!

PSS – *The book links are via my Amazon Affiliate and purchasing them through me (by clicking those specific links) would really help me out! Thank you! 🙂

The Lying Prophet

This blog post is mostly for my family and an open conversation with them. I come from a heritage of Bible-studiers and questioners. This one is specifically regarding my Uncle Bill, who passed last year. He had an issue with the same passage of scripture I did.

For reference, I was attempting to read through the Old Testament in my early 20’s, and when I got to 1 Kings 13, I had no frame of reference to make this understandable. I have more now, but it’s still a thought discovery in process. (And by that, I mean via help of the Holy Spirit.) No one could answer my questions at the time, and I confess my faith waned, not in belief, but in Biblical translation. Plus, I moved away from focusing on what God wanted for me and more, that God would just bless what I was doing.

Flash to today 20+ years later and reading books by many ancient text studying authors, I have a better understanding. As with the current cancel culture, societies thought differently and had different known points of social reference. Simply put, when I make a cultural comparison referencing someone to OJ Simpson, Kim Kardashian, or Covid-19, most people understand. A thousand years from now, people reading our old Tweets will have to ‘study’ to understand that reference. (Twitter really is currently social media’s digital public square – ugh!) An example of this is the Exodus story because each plague directly correlates to a god that the Egyptians worshiped.

My mom shared this Times Square sermon video that opened my eyes to the lion/donkey and the old prophet/young prophet reference. What I realize now is that there are more references when I read.
Video: http://sermons.tsc.nyc/surrounded-by-lions-and-donkeys/

I’m going through The Bible in One Year with Nicky & Pippa Gumbel, so I’m rereading all of scripture in a new, mature light.

Today was 1 Samuel 28 when King Saul went to the medium. The reference to him eating after seeing a false prophet clicked. (By a false prophet, I mean one sensitive to spiritual things with the ability to foresee via dreams and visions from God but not necessarily anointed by God or has not given their gift over to God – the God of Israel.)

Then I thought clicked to Balaam. What animal talked to Balaam? His donkey.

Remember, in the Hebrew language, words have dual meanings that must have the context to understand. Example: one word is used to reference God and god: Elohim/elohim. You have to gather the meaning by the context around the word as well as who is speaking to know if it is the One true/unique God of Israel or the god of, say…Asherah. This is probably because it was forbidden to speak or even write the Name of God. (J. K. Rowling used a similar ‘name’ concept in her Harry Potter books, reverencing the evil character as, ‘He who must not be named.’)

Now, if we take part of the reference of the donkey and lion from the sermon video about 1 Kings 13, we can put some pieces together. 

1 Samuel 28:

Kings Saul – seeking a false prophet

The witch of Endor – the false prophet

A command – It was known that going to a false prophet was going against God.

The lion – A vision of a “god” (the witch’s perspective), which Saul realizes means the prophet, Samuel

The donkey – the words spoken by Samuel.

A meal – Saul had a habit of fasting and wanting everyone to fast with him. This time he broke his fast by eating a meal prepared by the false prophet.

Numbers 22-24

Prince Balak– seeking a false prophet

Balaam – the false prophet

A command – God told Balaam not to go with them, but he went.

The lion – the angel of the LORD ready to kill Balaam for disobedience.

The donkey – Balaam’s talking donkey (the donkey’s words).

A meal – Balaam told them to ‘stay the night.’ It may not be a direct meal reference, but eating had to happen. But, remember, it was customary in those days that you fasted if you wanted something supernatural. Fasting was intense, asking. There is also mention of several animal sacrifices, which is a meal prepared to the LORD. (Balaam asked Balak to do this.)

There is no ending to this post. I don’t have any satisfying answers. I just realize cultural references, and for some reason that excites me.

Cheers!

PS: I’m sure there’s a symbolic reason why Jesus rode a donkey into Jerusalem. Mark 11:1-11)

Shie Rozow

Time has gotten away from me! It’s now June and while talking with one of my amazing musician friends Daryl Kojak tonight, I realized I had not posted about my work with Shie Rozow back in April. It was truly an honor!

So, please forgive me!

I did post it on Facebook, but rarely get on that particular social media every day.

You may recognize me in my New York Yankees T-shirt. 🙂

It even got some lay on a local station in Los Angeles which was pretty cool too!

Anyway, I plan to post again soon.

And thank you SO much to everyone who has donated to help keep my studio a float! I’m not out of the woods yet and since I don’t fit the qualifications for a Small Business grant or Loan, it’s just me, a handful of students and the kindness of fans. Please only give if you are able! Times are tough in so many ways!

Enjoy:

Purify

First of all, I want to thank everyone for the encouraging comments on my Facebook post. And forgive me, I sang it at First Baptist Moore’s Lane in Texarkana back in 2005 at either a Sunday night service or Wednesday night service. Vicki Carr was gracious to play with just my melody and chords.

In case you don’t have Facebook, I put it on YouTube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CzObrs9dxTM

I am posting this to share the lyrics I wrote back in 2005:

Purify/Purified
(original Key A major)

(Verse 1)
Lord, here I am again.
Longing to see Your face
You see I need
Your comfort, Lord
And the beauty of Your grace

(Bridge 1)
Sometimes it seems
As the days go by
I don’t even look like Your child
So forgive me of my unloveliness
And hold me for a while

(Chorus 1)
      Purify me, Lord
      I need a touch from You
      Fill my heart with Your righteousness
      Make me whole and make me new

(Verse 2)
Lord, now I run to you
Longing to see Your face
Your love, it comforts me
With the beauty of Your grace

(Bridge 2)
You teach me, Lord
As the days go by
And I look like I am Your child
You forgave me of my unloveliness
And You held me for a while.

(Chorus 2)
      You Purified me, Lord
      You gave a touch so true
      You filled my heart with Your righteousness
      Now I’m whole and I’m renewed

(for Corporate Worship)
      Purify us, Lord
      We need a touch from You
      Fill our heart with Your righteousness
      Make us whole and make us new

©2005
BMI Work # 7789187

 

**This is dedicated to my father Odis Tyler, the most amazing daddy a woman could have.**